02 April 2010

A Minor Blip

As Daddy often says, we’re the happiest couple that we know. We laugh all the time, we truly enjoy each other’s company, we’re madly in love, we communicate effectively, we like to do the day-to-day things together, we operate as a team, our sex life is off the charts… What more could we ask for?? Well, when you have a marriage and D/s relationship that is so utterly seamless and perfect, when there is even a small disturbance, it exposes itself instantly. For any other couple, it wouldn’t even register, but we’re both hypersensitive about our happiness and make it a daily priority to work on our relationship and to maintain our high standard of bliss! This week seems to be haunted by just one little disturbance that we can’t quite put our finger on, but it’s there… Maybe it’s a host of even smaller disturbances, but still, I know that we’re both ready to move out of this funk and get back to being “us”.

For my part, I’ve been struggling with the hormonal ebb and flow of my time of the month, which never bodes well for my sanity (or for Daddy’s either, I might add!). Although I suck Daddy’s cock daily during this time, we’re used to having sex/fucking at least once a day. This week puts the kibosh on really aggressive sex and/or play because of the ensuing cleanup efforts. We know that we could have sex (and have done so in the past), we just choose to avoid it if at all possible. Of course, we both find this lack of sex to be less than optimal and are getting antsy about getting back to business as usual. This is a small, identifiable, and easily fixable disturbance that we should be able to take care of very soon…and hopefully I mean very soon!

The other slight disturbance comes back to me as well… It’s not that Daddy is never at fault for anything, it’s just that, in this case, I recognize that my mental attitude is setting up a block between us. It has to do with the idea of Daddy with another woman. In his post from a few days ago (My Rights), he alluded to the fact that, if he so wished, he could be with another woman and that this would be entirely within his rights. This is a difficult notion for me to wrap my head around. Although I know that the likelihood of him doing so is incredibly slim, I must come to terms with the fact that he is my Master and he is able to do as he sees fit. He knows that I don’t like the idea of him with another woman, but he is helping me to see that it really doesn’t matter whether I like it or not. I am his property and have no say as to what he does. He is right. My role is to accept and obey.

Acceptance and obedience… I think I’ve found my new mantra for the week…and for the rest of my life…

9 comments:

  1. Baby Girl: Acceptance and obedience is a good mantra for you. It is your job to submit and obey and to do what you're told and make your Master happy. And if that includes him being with another woman, so be it.

    But..but..but..I hope he is just testing you to say you accept it even though he has no plans to do it. A good dom also is concerned about the welfare of his sub just as he did when you cut yourself.

    And you two have such a good thing going, that you have to hope he recognizes that him being with another woman is something that would bother you to your core. Let's hope he's savvy enough to realize that he wouldn't want to risk tarnishing the happiness that you two have. You would willingly accept being tattoed and/or pierced but this is something different. It could affect your great relationship. Anyway, that's just my two cents worth -- if it's worth that much.

    FD

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  2. I've made it clear to baby girl that I have no interest in being with any other girl. Why would I? Baby girl does anything and everything I want. Literally. There's nothing I could demand of her that she wouldn't give. When I want a quick fuck, I take it. When I want my cock sucked, I demand it. When I want to whip her into tears or subspace, I order it. I can have anything I want, anytime I want. I'm not going to find that anyplace else.

    All that said, baby girl is right: she has to realize that she's the slave and I'm the Master. She voluntarily gave up every right in order to gain the satisfaction and joy of being owned by me. There's no going back now. And that means that I can do whatever I want, whenever I want, with whomever I want. She has to understand that. It doesn't mean I'm going to act on it, a day or a decade from now. I seriously doubt I ever will. But it's my right. And she's going to come to terms with that.

    It's that simple.

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  3. Thanks for your comments, FD!

    You know, I think that what's most important at this stage of the game is realizing that although there are certain aspects of our relationship that I would like to control, I cannot and must not do so. This is such an important lesson for me to learn...

    Whether it be Daddy wishing to be with another woman or some other right that he wishes to exercise, any semblance of my voice or choice in this matter is simply non-existent. Daddy has explained that he has no desire to be with other women, he just wants me to understand that it is within his rights to do so. And I'm finally starting to realize that this is all part of my training to make me a better slave to him.

    And, once again, I fall back on acceptance and obedience...and am at peace...

    Take care,
    Baby Girl :)

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  4. (I see that we were posting comments at almost exactly the same time, Daddy! Thank you for your patience, your guidance, and your love... I am so happy and lucky to be your slave, Master...)

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  5. Hey, I hope I helped you two communicate on the subject and it sounds like you're both on the same page. You two have such a wonderful thing going and you must be the envy of every couple you know -- in and out of cyberspace.

    FD

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  6. I know how you feel... it can really shake you up when you're made to face the things they COULD do if they pleased. Even when you know deep down they would probably never do it... especially if it would harm you on an emotional level or put a wedge in your relationship, but just the knowing that he could do it if he chose to is enough to make your stomach twist in knots.

    *hugs*

    spirited

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  7. You've nailed it, spirited! I like to think that I'm mentally and emotionally steeled for and by my submission, and then Daddy reminds me of his ownership privileges - and I get knocked for a loop! He does like to keep me on my toes...and reminding me of my submission in a very fundamental way is a wonderful manner of doing so.

    I'm going to chalk this one up to a learning experience and move on, firmly planted in my rightful place beneath my Master... :)

    Take care,
    Baby Girl :)

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  8. Hi there, I'm the same "anonymous" commenter from your Submission post in March. This post really hit home! I hope it's as encouraging for you to blog about this and read our comments, as it is for us to read your thoughts and be able to relate. It's so hard to find someone to talk to about all of this who doesn't give you the strangest looks... even my closest friend would die if she knew how I felt and how my husband and I are when no one is around. Just want you to know your blog is very inspiring!

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  9. Hello again, Anonymous friend! :)

    Yes, it's extremely encouraging - both the blogging itself and reading the comments that we get. I understand where you're coming from about not knowing who to talk to about these things! Nobody knows about the life that Daddy and I lead when we're alone, and if I didn't have other blogs to go to or kindred spirits to talk to, it'd be pretty lonely around here! Plus, being relatively new to this lifestyle, it's nice to be able to read about real-life situations instead of just erotic stories or porn.

    Thank you very much for the encouragement and for your comments! :) By the way, have you ever considered blogging yourself? It's a great way to get some of those feelings out there!

    Take care,
    Baby Girl :)

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