As Daddy often says, we’re the happiest couple that we know. We laugh all the time, we truly enjoy each other’s company, we’re madly in love, we communicate effectively, we like to do the day-to-day things together, we operate as a team, our sex life is off the charts… What more could we ask for?? Well, when you have a marriage and D/s relationship that is so utterly seamless and perfect, when there is even a small disturbance, it exposes itself instantly. For any other couple, it wouldn’t even register, but we’re both hypersensitive about our happiness and make it a daily priority to work on our relationship and to maintain our high standard of bliss! This week seems to be haunted by just one little disturbance that we can’t quite put our finger on, but it’s there… Maybe it’s a host of even smaller disturbances, but still, I know that we’re both ready to move out of this funk and get back to being “us”.
For my part, I’ve been struggling with the hormonal ebb and flow of my time of the month, which never bodes well for my sanity (or for Daddy’s either, I might add!). Although I suck Daddy’s cock daily during this time, we’re used to having sex/fucking at least once a day. This week puts the kibosh on really aggressive sex and/or play because of the ensuing cleanup efforts. We know that we could have sex (and have done so in the past), we just choose to avoid it if at all possible. Of course, we both find this lack of sex to be less than optimal and are getting antsy about getting back to business as usual. This is a small, identifiable, and easily fixable disturbance that we should be able to take care of very soon…and hopefully I mean very soon!
The other slight disturbance comes back to me as well… It’s not that Daddy is never at fault for anything, it’s just that, in this case, I recognize that my mental attitude is setting up a block between us. It has to do with the idea of Daddy with another woman. In his post from a few days ago (My Rights), he alluded to the fact that, if he so wished, he could be with another woman and that this would be entirely within his rights. This is a difficult notion for me to wrap my head around. Although I know that the likelihood of him doing so is incredibly slim, I must come to terms with the fact that he is my Master and he is able to do as he sees fit. He knows that I don’t like the idea of him with another woman, but he is helping me to see that it really doesn’t matter whether I like it or not. I am his property and have no say as to what he does. He is right. My role is to accept and obey.
Acceptance and obedience… I think I’ve found my new mantra for the week…and for the rest of my life…
3 weeks ago