03 May 2010

A Submissive Voyeur?


Much like the notion of one’s sexuality falling on a scale (ranging from heterosexuality to homosexuality and the seemingly infinite shades between those two poles, or perhaps using submissiveness and Dominance as the two poles), I feel (and I’m sure that I’m not the first one to think of this) that there is another ruler with which we can measure ourselves: the scale between voyeurism and exhibitionism. I was reminded of this while watching Daddy stroke his cock this morning…

As I first stirred this morning, my hand, as if by instinct, went straight for Daddy’s cock. Daddy’s whole body pressed up against mine always gives me so much comfort…holding his cock in my hand just enhances this feeling. I obey Daddy, I obey his cock. I am a slave to Daddy, I am a slave to his cock. Daddy slaps me, his cock slaps me. So, when you think about it in these terms, it really isn’t all that odd that I would find reassurance from holding Daddy’s cock in my hand.

His dick stirred…and became increasingly hard. And right when I thought that Daddy would force my face down on his thick member, he pulled the sheets off us and said, “Baby girl is going to watch as her Daddy strokes his cock. Tell me all about some of those nasty things that you’d like your Daddy to do to you…” As I whispered in his ear, telling him about the sordid, embarrassing, humiliating experiences that I fantasize about (perhaps more on this later?), he stroked himself faster and faster. I couldn’t take my eyes off him. His hand firmly sliding up and down his shaft… Carefully making contact with every square inch of his length… Quickly bringing himself close to climax… God, this was making me hot…

“Get down there and open your mouth. Daddy is going to cum in his little girl’s mouth.”

And cum he did, filling his little whore’s mouth with a load of his cream. I swallowed every last drop that Daddy gave me, thinking about how much I love watching him masturbate.

Now, from what I’ve read it seems that most submissives lean towards exhibitionism as opposed to voyeurism (or at least, deep down, they enjoy the humiliation of being forced to expose themselves to watching eyes). Conversely, most Doms tend to be voyeurs, relishing in watching their subs masturbate, engage in scenes with other Doms, get spanked, whipped or tortured, etc. Psychoanalytical theory (Freud, Lacan, and the gang), although it has, admittedly, fallen out of favor somewhat, will have us believe that the voyeur wields the power (Dominant) whereas the one “on exhibit” (submissive) is a sort of victim, exposed (willingly or unwillingly) to the gaze of the voyeur(s) and seemingly without any agency whatsoever in the power exchange.

But how then can I reconcile my love of watching Daddy stroke himself with my submissive way of life? Am I any less submissive because I like to watch as well as be watched? I don’t think so! In this case, Daddy chose to masturbate and he made me watch him, made me watch the cock that controls me, made me swallow his spunk, made me admit my nasty desires to him in order to please him and to enhance his orgasm. Voyeur or not, I am completely owned by my Daddy/Master and feel no guilt about observing and gazing upon the man that controls me. And after much thought, I simply do not feel that the terms “voyeur” and “submissive” are mutually exclusive.

Any thoughts? :)

11 comments:

  1. Baby Girl: My first thought is what you mentioned. Master told you to watch him stroking his cock so you were being more of a submissive than a voyeur because you did what he told you to do, which is what you usually do.

    As you said, since you're owned, you should feel no guilt. You were following his instructions. It is part of his continued training of you and it sounds like you are making a lot of progress because you always tend to do what he tells you to do.

    And do you like swallowing his cum or do you do it because you were told to?

    FD

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  2. Hello FD!

    Thanks for the feedback and for your input on this issue - and, you know, it's not that I was feeling guilty about it, I was just trying to figure out if voyeurism and submissiveness are inherently contradictory...and I think you're right! As a submissive, doing what I am told to do can and should be rewarding and fulfilling regardless of what the activity is...and this morning's exercise was definitely all that and more! ;)

    And I LOVE swallowing Daddy's cum! Always have and always will... Although, it should be noted that I don't ever get to swallow it until Daddy says so (he usually likes to see it in my mouth first)... :)

    Take care,
    Baby Girl :)

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  3. Love this post...the picture you used is a bit freaky...lol but love it all the same.

    Carrie

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  4. Watching my Master stroke His cock makes me absolutely insane with lust for Him. It is mesmerizing to me, so I understand exactly what you're saying. I see it as a very submissive thing in myself to watch Him. His power, His strength, being told to watch and not touch, waiting anxiously for the words that will allow me to swallow Him and feed on Him. It's all perfect. Watching Him, Him watching me... sigh... now I want my Daddy. (ok I ALWAYS want my Daddy but now it's more intense than it was a minute ago, lol...)

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  5. Because Daddy told you to whisper dirty things to him and to take his hot seed in your mouth, you were being voyeuristic on his terms and he was being exhibitionist on his terms. To me, it is as much a measure of Daddy's skill and control as it is anything.

    As (hopefully) a Dom Ascendant, I still do things that some may say are very submissive for my wife. I cook, I massaged her last night, I do things that I like to do that many would call submissive. On the other hand, I only do them when I want and on my terms.

    For one thing, I love to cook. Does that mean I am a submissive? I cook what I want and when I want. The rare evening when I do not feel like cooking anything, I will tell my lizard and she will cook. Every once in a while I will tell her to dress up and be ready for me in the evening with a sexy outfit, and to make my dinner. She would absolutely never do that.

    My lizard never asks me for a massage. I give them when I want to, and tell her she must be stripped naked and in bed by 8:15 if she wants her massage, and I am totally in control of where and how I touch her. (Then she gets a good fucking afterwards, sometimes with spanks, sometimes with anal beads, in short, with almost anything I desire). Either I am a submissive in some ways, or, as I like to think, I am confident enough in my ability to control lizard that I don't worry how other people see it.

    So the same is true in your relationship. your Daddy is in control of the things he wants to be in control of, and if, in some esoteric analysis that has an element that could be construed as submissive, it only makes him that much more of a Dom in my way of thinking!

    Good job to both of you, I love your inspiring writing.

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  6. PS, my confirmation word on that last round was "subbi," which only confirms what you ALWAYS are.

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  7. Thank you all for writing! :)

    Hi Carrie!

    Yeah, the pic kind of freaked me out too...but I thought it conveyed the word "voyeur" to a "T"! How could I pass that up?? ;)

    Hi there, prima!

    I know exactly what you mean...it really is perfect! And I know that you're mind is going to be running in overdrive until you're with your Daddy again...soon, prima, soon! :)

    Hello Dom Tom!

    You know what? You're right...maybe all this "supposed to be" and "labeling" nonsense is for the birds! We are the submissives and the Dominants that we choose to be, that we embrace, that we see ourselves as...there's no one right way of doing TTWD! My Daddy cooks for me as well and definitely does his share of household work...but when he wishes to flex his dominant muscles and he commands something of me, I obey his every word. I guess we all just have to go with what works best, right? :)

    P.S. HA! That's so silly! "subbi," huh?

    Take care all,
    Baby Girl :)

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  8. I'm a total voyeur from sexual situations to my favorite past-time of people-watching.

    I like to watch men stroke their cocks...masturbate. Not just random men. My lovers for sure, but also men that I find pleasing for one reason or another.

    I never thought of a submissive as the exhibitionist. Interesting thought. Yes, I know my Dom likes to see me wear certain things, perform for him, whatever. I am on exhibit. I prefer to watch him stroke his cock.

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  9. Hi Hedone!

    So perhaps there's nothing to reconcile here! :) I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one who enjoys watching a man (especially my Daddy/Master) stroke his cock... There is something so raw and vital about it - delightful!

    Thanks for taking the time to write!

    Take care,
    Baby Girl :)

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  10. I think that there can definitely be a dominant way in exposing oneself and a submissive way of watching. If a dominant is activly doing something and knows he/she is being watched by the submissive, I think he/she can wield power over the voyeur, knowing how they excite the voyeur, that they have the voyeur enthralled, under their spell. I think it's more a question of who's being active and passive, and about control. If a dom has ordered its sub to e.g. strip - then the dom is in control. The voyeur is dominant. If the dom has set up a scene where the dom will "perform" and knows that the sub will be watching, almost helpless with lust - then the voyeur is the submissive. My two cents. :-)

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  11. Hello Anonymous!

    Thanks for writing! :) I appreciate your two cents and am glad that you posted your comment - I think my favorite part is your notion of the Dom "casting a spell" over the submissive. I'm not particularly mystical or interested in fantasy, magic, etc., but there are definitely times when I find myself "under his spell". Certain words he uses, certain looks he shoots me, certain gestures that bring me to my knees...mmm...

    I like your interpretation of this issue! :)

    Take care,
    Baby Girl :)

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